If I were to have a horse

He'd be just like Cupid. I frickin love this horse. He's the horse version of me and my truck. He's not quite ugly, mildly good-looking, not old but not young either, plenty strong but ain't in no hurry to get no whar, and he's got the coolest frickin mane. It's really thick and unmanageable so they keep it short so it makes this frickin awesome mohawk. Damn, it looks tough. I might consider the idea of having a horse like Cupid, however, nowadays, having a horse is too much of a luxury and thus very expensive. If I could have a bedroll on my saddle and sleep on a patch of dirt, I would do it in a heartbeat.

This is the same reason I won't bother getting another bike. It's become too much of a luxury and subsequently it has become a pain in the arse. Therefore, I will stick to my dream of having something to float on and maybe one day a sailboat. I sure do enjoy visiting Cupid and the other horseys and petting their heads. I am also hoping to get the kids involved in horsey activities. Truthfully, I expect Neriah to be a jock so he will likely have a sport to keep him occupied. Rhianna, on the other hand, I expect to be the gorgeous bookworm type, so I want her to have an interest to shield her from the influence of the other teenage girls and the stoopid boys who will lie to her to enrage her dad and cause him to hafta be the good bad guy.

Listening to: Regular People (conceit), by Pantera

revelation

I just took a shower after getting my hairs cut by Emily and I hadta fall onto my bed and rest fer a minute because the dogs threatened me. Besides, the fear they instilled in me, I was already tired from mucking stalls at the barn yesterday. Then, this morning, I decided to start painting the table on the back porch.

Anyway, as I was laying on my bed, not quite sleeping, just resting, I was given enlightenment. This is why I believe that, regardless of yer religious affiliation, introspection and meditation are the two most important practices for our lives as humans. I was thinking about one of many times, not too long ago, in which I was blessed by God far beyond my comprehension.

Here's the enlightenment part, our usual response, as a human, would be to recall what 'we' did to make it happen. I imagined an awesome analogy, or parable, I guess. Rats in a maze are trained to push a button or a lever or something to get food when they see a light. So, they know that when there is a light, they can get food. Peeps do the same thing but a bit more arrogant. We see a light and get some food, so we try to figger out what 'we' did to trigger the light, not even considering the scientist who is turning the light on and off.

The number in a phone book or the friend's recommendation or walking into a situation at just the right time has nothing to do with 'our' input. It could be anything. How God chooses to make something happen is perfectly fit to the situation. The awesome thing is, no matter how arrogant we are, or how doubtful we are, He is still working and He will still bless us regardless of our choices. What seems to be crystal clear to me is that, while our own foolishness may not stop God's plan, it can get in the way and send our bowling ball down the lane like there are gutter guards. The ball bounces back and forth all the way. It is going to get to the same damm destination. It just has a harder time of it.

Listening to: Over, by Portishead.

Wow, it's cool this morning

Listening to: Bathwater, by No Doubt

Wow, just yesterday, I took this picture. It was the usual beautiful sky and 90 degrees. This morning, however, was the first morning it's actually been cool. 65 degrees, whoa. It's still very nice. I was just surprised at the big drop in temperature. It, again, makes me thankful that I'm down here in Florida. It's frickin the middle of October and it just now gets all the way down to 65. Yeah, ok, I can live with that.


The new nameplate I had made for Emily's horsey' stall is posedta be ready today. I'm kinda excited about pickin it up. I like to make her smile. She makes me warm inside.

Listening to: Perfect Girl, by Sarah McLachlan

Good morning

Listening to: Heel Over Head, by Puddle of Mudd

I slept so nicely and woke up very nicely, too. I am up alone, nutn new. I just had a cup of coffee and a piece of the fabulous cake that Emily made. I saw it on the cover of a magazine at the grocery sto and thought it looked good, so she made it.

She is sleeping still. She is still getting up earlier than usual. I hasta go get her up in a bit so she can get ready to go to da beach. We is gonna go pick up my kids and take them to Anna Maria island. I am really looking forward to it because it is not a frequented beach, so the shells are not picked over, thus they are actually whole. We even saw live sand dollars the last time we went there.

Ok, I is gonna go do a bit more unpacking before I wake her up. I am still not done. Thankfully, she isn't either, from her move down here from KY. It takes the pressure off me. The house being a mess isn't entirely my fault. ;)

Listening to: Whatever, by Godsmack

Took a nap so I'm feeling rested enough to do a couple things

This picture is just a reminder of something I have said many times. You can can try to control yer life and the world around you but it's really pointless. The world is too big for our speckness to be so arrogant as to think we can control anything.

ok, I'm less interested in writing than I thought. I took a nap at like 7:30 til bout 9, so I am feeling pretty motivated fer a change. Now, I need to do some things related to moving in mo betta. I imagine I'll be exhausted again once't I do that.

Ok, enough fer now.

Listening to: Emily's sweet laugh and the gentle breeze of the fan.